Genetically determined

It’s actually kind of weird that I never got drunk before.
I mean, after all the things I’ve been through.
And alcoholism is genetically determined.
So.

And by the way, after just one sip of beer I’m kind of jumpy.
So I would just need one beer, maybe two, and I’d be away.

Maybe I need some more to forget what I did the night before.
And I should do it on a Saturday, ‘cause on Sunday I can stay in bed.

This is probably why I’m never drinking; I think too much about it. I plan these things. God, seriously.
I can’t let go. I need control. How painful it might be.

This is so fucking annoying.