Unconsciously

It has been long since I saw you smiling heartily. It made me feel good.
You know I never wanted to hurt you, deep down, somewhere. I’m so extremely sorry.
My feelings have changed towards you. Sometimes I see you and feel the butterflies again, but then you start talking and acting like you do and I remember who you are.
I’m glad he isn’t mine. I love you.
I keep having these weird dreams about you and when I wake up I always feel bad. Like I don’t deserve to have a good night sleep or something.
I’m sorry I am this way. I wish I could make you happier. It’s just that while he’s there, I can’t change. I keep running the same circle.
Let me go.
Maybe it’s ok that I’m losing him. Although it hurts.
Don’t leave me.
I love you.
Sometimes you’re ok. Sometimes you’re fine. Sometimes you’re great. I miss you.
He’s not the one I thought he was. He has changed.
If this is who you are, who you were the whole time, beneath the surface, then I’ve mistaken you.
Why did I think that he was special again? When all this time I had you?
I guess my dreams are true. Every time I dream about you, you end up hurting me, most of the time you’re not even conscious of it. That’s the worst part.
It’s just so annoying that he never listens. I’m so happy you do.
Maybe it’s fine that we part. We might be just too alike. I’ll never forget you.
I’ll be with you forever.